Thursday, January 5, 2012
To pick up where I left off....which was vacation...
We arrived home from the beach safely. The day after our return, the owner of my home....the home that I love, had been hoping and dreaming of for so long, a dream that had come true.......dropped over for a visit.
He informed me that since he had built a new home of his own and had overextended himself, he had to sell this home. A buyer was all lined up. She wanted to move and take possession in approximately two months' time.
I understood his dilemma, but this announcement presented me with my own dilemma...
Where to go?
First month's rent plus a security deposit?
Not to mention all the past memories of moving that came flooding back to me.....times that I had moved because I was leaving a bad situation, times that I had to move because I was financially unable to stay where I was....all the bad memories pouring over me...into me....as though a dam had broken.
I spent two weeks in a kind of 'shocked' mode...unable to progress into what I knew I had to do.
Finally, after days of crying and yes--having a sort of 'pity party' for myself....I start looking for a new place to live.
Sounds easy, doesn't it?
Just find a place and move in?
Not as easy as you might think....especially when you have a 'past'....most of a 'past' that doesn't really belong to you.....just tags along with you....
The owner then tells me that the moving date has been moved to the end of November....then to the middle of November....then to the beginning of November.
My kids and I spend each evening for a week packing my belonging.
They are being moved to storage for the time being.
Me? I am staying with my daughters and granddaughter for the time being. Cara wanted me to stay until at least CHRISTmas.
Here it is now....January 5....I am still here....which has taken some adjusting....again--some good and some not so good....
More again soon....