Puzzle Pieces

 Sunday, July 31, 2011


I'm joining Peggy for Soaking on SONday....

It's really simple and easy...perhaps you would like to join in?  Just post a Scripture, a song, something that has touched you....something you would like to share and soak in today....

Sometimes I think too much....

Sometimes my mind is not still for a second.....

Sometimes I dwell on the past.....

Sometimes I feel put upon by others....

Sometimes I feel lonely....

Sometimes I think my life has not been fair....

Sometimes I think my life has been one trial after another.....

Sometimes I wonder if people believe that all that has happened in my life is true....

And sometimes all of this adds up to becoming sad....which leads to the anxiety, the worry, the depression, the tears, the emotional mess...

So, I come to You today....my Jesus....my Savior....to give all the mess to You to handle....the mess that is me....

I come to You in pieces.....broken again.....I am puzzle pieces in Your eyes....

Because only You can make me whole.....and You will take this broken vessel and use me for Your glory.

Thank You, Jesus, for calling my name, for choosing me, for saving me, for loving me enough to see me not as I am today...but who I am to become.....whole and blessed in Your eyes...





 



strong as a lion; weak as a lamb

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Knocking At The Door

 Saturday, July 30, 2011

I am a day late again!!  It seems to be very difficult for me to post on Friday after a long week...

But, as Grandma said:  "Better late than never!"....I'm sure a lot of Grandma's had this saying...

I am joining Peggy for her Friday Feature.  I have chosen these verses from the many of the promises God has given us. 




“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?...Matthew 6:25-26


And these verses go on to say:



Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.....Matthew 6:27-34


If you've been reading along with me, you'll know that I have been having a lot of anxiety and worries over some situations in my life....anxiety to the point that it almost feels debilitating. 

I have been in this place before....about a totally different situation.  But, this worry and anxiety is not the way God wants me to live.  He wants me to be dependent upon me....seeking Him first....and He will supply exactly what I need to go from day to day. 

As I was contemplating upon these verses, a memory was brought to my heart and mind

I was a young girl...perhaps 8 or 9 years old.  I am in church on a Sunday, and it is so hot...just like the days we've been having now.  We had no air conditioning, only fans that were supplied by a local funeral home. 

These fans had pictures on them, and my fan on that very hot day had this exact same picture:


I'm sure that many people have seen this picture--Jesus knocking at the door. 

If you will notice, the door has no handle for Jesus to open the door and come inside.  He is waiting on the other side for us to open the door to our hearts, inviting Him into our lives. 

These verses from Matthew--they are Jesus speaking--speaking to each one of us:

Invite me into your life--I am here for you--don't worry about these things--I can take care of all of these and more--you are My child and I love you....

But, we have to make the choice, open the door, and rest in the assurance that God has the power and strength...will give us the strength through Him and not ourselves....

No, worry will not add a single day to our lives.  In fact, worry will more than likely take away a day or more of our lives.

So, why not give it to God and let Him handle all of these things?  He is so much more capable than I am!!




Strong as a lion; weak as a lamb

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Weak Yet Strong

 Thursday, July 28, 2011

Yesterday after work, I headed over to see two friends...very dear friends....and we talked and prayed about all that is on my mind. 

Wonderful, calming, peaceful.........interspersed with laughter and tears....words of wisdom and love from God....

I left their home, listening to the radio as I drove.  God often speaks to me through music, and I heard a song that I had never heard before.

The chorus of  this song, "Taste and See" by Jason Allen Rich stayed with me through the night and into this morning:

 



I want to taste and see
That the Lord
That the Lord is good
And I want to be strong like a lion
But weak like a lamb
And I want to be Your child
Broken and broken and broken again




As I listened to this song--these words in particular--an image came to my heart and mind....


along with these verses from God's Word to fill my very being:



But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.......2 Corinthians 12:9-10


Yes, I will be weak like a lamb.  I know the Good Shepherd, and He knows me....calls me by name...tenderly caring for His flock...I hear His voice and I will follow.

And through my weakness, I will rely on the strength of the lion....and my weaknesses will be made strong by His power and not my own.


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Anticipation

 Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Ahhhh....It was so wonderful to step outside onto the deck this morning!

The temperature is only 67 degrees and no humidity--compared to the wet sponge I've been walking into with temps in the low 80's before the sun rises!!

As you can see, I've added a 'vacation countdown"....only 59 days until we leave for our vacation on Chincoteague Island in Virginia. 

I am so looking forward to this...haven't been here (or on any 'go-away' vacation) in over 10 years!!

Cara, Lydia and Lindsay are coming with me.....Danielle, Andrew, Brooklyn and Jackson will be visiting for a few days during our trip.  I cannot wait....well, I have to wait 59 days, but the anticipation is growing for me and all my family members!!

We've rented an adorable cottage on the island....the beach just a quick drive away on Assateague Island , and a time of relaxation, family and fun.

And on an even more positive note....I've been totally abdominal pain free for the past two days!!  Thank You, God!! 

Last night, I even decided to test this new medication the gastroenterologist prescribed for me and eat a regular type dinner instead of my usual cottage cheese or some other food that is soft and unchewable.

I didn't go crazy with this...just some macaroni and cheese and a hamburger....first 'real' food I've had since the beginning of June....

And no pain, not even a twinge of discomfort!!  I even slept through the night without being awakened by the pain that has been plaguing me for two months!!

Yes, God does answer prayers!!  I've been praying, and I know many other people have been praying right along with me.....and these prayers have been met by God's promises, faithfulness and love!!  A big 'thank you' to all who have been praying!!

See you tomorrow!!

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Should I or Shouldn't I?

 Tuesday, July 26, 2011

I said yesterday that I would have pictures today of the baby blanket that I'm working on.  So, here it is:


This is called 'Cables and Lace Baby Blanket', and is one of my very favorite patterns.  Each row in a section is different, so I don't easily become complacent and not pay attention resulting in my making a mistake. 

Yes, this is the very same pattern that I used for Lydia's first blanket--the blanket she carries with her from place to place.


I'm still contemplating whether or not to open a 'shop'...either on Etsy or Artfire....

I've been thinking about this for some time....going back and forth in my mind....which site, should I do this or not, the extra income would be wonderful, is it worth my time and effort.....

I do know this....knitting and the many other handcrafts I do are very relaxing to me.  I love the feel of the yarn in my hands....I love watching a ball of yarn turning into something beautiful.....I love that God has given me this talent....

So, what do you think?  Should I or shouldn't I open a shop?  Any feedback on either sites would be wonderful!!



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Feelings

 Monday, July 25, 2011

It has been a long weekend.......

And here it is, Monday morning, and I'm now wondering how these two days flew by.  Funny how when I was living in the past two days they seemed to drag on and on, but now looking back they seemed to go so fast. 

To try to take my mind off the anxiety and nervousness feelings I've been having, I started a baby blanket for my cousin's daughter.  She is expecting a little girl in November. 

I thought I would make her something and send it to my cousin as a baby gift.  No pics yet...perhaps tomorrow. 

Keeping my hands busy seemed to keep my mind busy also.  So, the feelings were pushed down for the weekend (for the most part).

Now, Monday is here....I'm sitting here typing....my mind is going 1000 miles per second.....and I can feel it returning.

The anxiety....
The feelings of doom and gloom....
The constant shaking of my foot....
The fear of the unknown.....

I remember these feelings from long ago....

I thought I had dealt with all that was causing this, but obviously I have not.  I need to spend time in prayer with my Father...a deliberate time with Him...taking time not just to talk to Him, but to listen to what He has to say to me, show me....why this is happening, where I am to go from here. 

I know and have all faith that He can relieve this, but I need to be shown the way.  I need to seek Him more and more....let His peace come into my heart and mind....healing the wounds that are causing these feelings within me. 

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Seeking Calm

 Sunday, July 24, 2011

Today is Sunday...and I'm linking up with Peggy for Soaking On SONday...

I said yesterday that I was struggling with anxiety...fear of the unknown...how this is definitely not the way God wants us to live. 

So, I am wondering why I struggle so against releasing all of my fears and anxieties to the One who loves me the most...the One who is control....the One who knows and sees all....the One who can take my fear and anxiety and calm me with a touch of His Hand...a word from His Word....



Courtesy of Heartlight



 I need to soak in this verse.  I need to let God take control, completely surrender to Him. 


God often speaks to me through music.  This morning I actually did a Google search for "Christian music about releasing your fears to God", and this song was #1 on the search.

As I sat and listened...sang along...tears flowed to the point of sobbing...crying out to my God...seeking His peace, His forgiveness for seeking other things before Him....







And as I sat here, watching, listening, singing, crying....the calm and peace of my God filled my soul.....

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Restoration and Healing

 Saturday, July 23, 2011

I'm a day late....

I'm joining Peggy for 'Friday Feature'--claiming one of the many promises our Father God has given us as my own.

This week, this promise has been fulfilled in me:









For I will restore you to health
And I will heal you of your wounds, declares the LORD.

Jeremiah 30:17a (NASB)



These past two months have been a trying time for me....not feeling well...unable to eat many foods...abdominal pain which comes more than it goes....and the most trying of all is the 'not knowing' what is truly causing these symptoms.

Yesterday, I had a procedure which revealed the cause of my problems.  In the back of my mind, there was lurking the possibility that all of the symptoms put together could be a cancer growing within me. 

And I allowed this grow...bringing it to God, but not fully releasing this to Him....

I was to be at the hospital at 8:30 for a procedure at 10 a.m.  I was up early, couldn't sleep, and the anxiety that came with these thoughts, the procedure awaiting me, the outcome of the procedure...well, I'll just put it simply...I felt overwhelmed with anxiety.

I was alone in my home...no one to talk with to help focus my mind elsewhere...

Yes, I prayed....prayed and prayed...and still the restlessness and feelings stayed with me.

At 7:30 a.m., my friend arrived...much earlier than expected.  And, she was an answer to my prayer.  She came into my home...we talked, and I told her how anxious I was feeling about this whole day. 

Just the telling of this to someone, helped alleviate my fears.  God sent her to me.....I could talk with her and through her being here, I felt the presence of God as peace in my heart and mind

Many wounds from my past have been healed through the blood of Jesus.  There are many hurts that have just been swept away. 

But, as all of us are...I am still a work in progress...still walking along on my journey....and how easy it is to slip and fall in the lies of the enemy...allowing him to steal my peace and joy. 

That is exactly what I was doing by jumping to false conclusions....worrying about the outcome of something that had not yet even happened.....

This is not the way God wants us to live...

He wants to be omnipresent in our lives....

He wants us to seek Him for comfort and guidance....

He wants to heal our hurts and wounds....

But, we have to seek Him.....develop our intimate relationship with Him...remain in constant contact with Him through our prayers and our everyday lives...ever seeking to be closer and closer.

Yes, I did have the procedure.

No, it was not the cancer I thought may be lurking there.

What I have is irritable bowel syndrome....not something that is enjoyable by any means....but, this is the best case scenario for the symptoms I have.

This can be controlled through medication, diet, and reducing my stress level.....

And yesterday, I gave thanks to my Father for my friend arriving early...her staying with me and supporting me through this procedure....her love for me shining through...

I gave thanks for the many prayers that were offered to God for me...

I gave thanks for the good news of my diagnosis, and God's powerful and mighty Hand steering my course.

Most of all, I gave thanks for Jesus...the One who sacrificed all for me.....and you.

For it is by His wounds that we are healed.

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Lead Me

 Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Tuesday has arrived.....

For some reason, Tuesday seems to be the busiest day at my work.  I don't know why...thinking that Monday would be busier....but, this doesn't ever seem to happen.

So, I'm preparing myself for the day....giving this day, as all days, over to God--for His guidance and direction...and for me to be able to hear and sense His presence throughout the day over all the noisiness of this world.


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Third Birthday

 Monday, July 18, 2011

On Saturday afternoon, we celebrated Jackson's third birthday...

Brooklyn reading Jackson's birthday card to him...



Brooklyn and Jackson...before their lips turned totally blue from the cake icing....



Lindsay and Lydia checking out one of the birthday presents...

All in all....a wonderful birthday celebration for a wonderful little boy!!





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Time For A Party

 Sunday, July 17, 2011

I'm linking up with Peggy for Soaking on SONday. 




If you would like to join in, please visit her and link up!!  It's easy...just a Scripture or song--something--that has spoken to you through God....

So, I've not been feeling well....you all know this...

These past few days have been a test of my patience and tolerance.  The pain is not steady and constant, but comes and goes...I never know when.

Not only do I not know when, I don't know where.  These pains move from the lower abdomen to the upper abdomen....sometimes on the right, sometimes on the left, sometimes in the middle.

To say that this is starting to be a bit trying and sapping me of my energy is a small statement.

Yesterday, I finally broke down and had a 'pity party' for myself--a full blown party with tears and sobs and yes, a bit of anger thrown in just for good measure.  Of course, the 'party' did not involve just my illness that seems to go on forever.  Oh, no....the list started there and moved on to other things in my life that I felt were unfair, unjust, 'slap in the face' things that happened recently and long ago..

Doesn't the enemy know how to use one situation and stir us up into a lather of past issues--bringing them back to the forefront once again?  Situations that have absolutely nothing to do with the present, but push a button, and they are there...those places that remain unhealed...and he will work them to his advantage--if we let him.

In the middle of all of these carryings-on, my youngest daughter calls me.  We are supposed to go to a birthday party that afternoon for Danielle's son, Jackson.  Am I going, she wants to know.

Sobbing, I try to talk to her--explain my feelings and frustrations.  She listens....really listens to what I'm telling her.  She does not say to just brush my feelings aside.  She does not say that this is nothing and to get over it.  She does not say that I'm acting like a child.

What came through in our conversation was her love and care for me....the knowledge of this love....the caring she showed just by listening and being there for me....her willingness to help me do the things I've been unable to do (such as cleaning)...

And though my youngest daughter professes not to believe, God's love was shining through her--whether she knew it or not. 

God--what an awesome God--using my daughter to show me His love for me......





For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us long ago...Ephesians 2:10





Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!....2 Corinthians 5:17



And yes, we did attend Jackson's birthday party....probably the best thing I could have done for myself yesterday...get out of the house and be with others...

As I feel God's love flowing through me, I'm having another kind of 'party'....a party of celebration of His love and care for me....

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Power Outage

 Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Yesterday was interesting....

I woke up at my usual time....stumbled out to the kitchen to make my coffee....then I stood and waited for enough coffee to drip into the pot so that I could grab my first cup.

There it is....first cup of "wake me up".....and I'm just pouring this into my cup when I was plunged into silence and darkness.

For some reason, the electric source to my house completely died.  Just like that....one minute going through my normal routine, and in a second--gone.

I thought that perhaps this was one of those "on again-off again" power problems.  So, I waited....standing in the kitchen....cup of coffee in hand...in the still and dark of the very early morning.

Nothing happened....no flicker of lights indicating that the electric would be returning....nothing.

I found the matches, made my way to the living room to find a candle, and I lit this.  Then, I went outside....

Yes, every one's house is in darkness and stillness.  I hear my neighbor's generator running, so this is everyone and not just me. 

I sat on the deck....drinking my coffee...savoring the stillness and darkness.  I'm thinking to myself that this probably won't last--I'll be able to start getting ready for work soon.

Time passes....no electric....no ironing of the clothes I am going to wear....no shower...no hair washing or drying.

It is getting late, and I must get ready--electric or no electric.

I find some clothes that aren't too wrinkly, take my candle into the bathroom with me so that I can at least see to brush my hair.  Doesn't look too bad from what I can ascertain from the flickers in the mirror. 

I thought to myself--"Well, they'll just have to take me this way--perhaps a little wrinkled...perhaps my hair doesn't look the greatest...but I'll be there to do my job....just have to take me the way I am."

And then my heart and mind felt the thought..."I love you just the way you are." 

What a wonderful feeling!!  God's love isn't dependent upon my clothing or my hair.  He doesn't immediately 'shut off' His love if I mess something up or have some untouched areas of wrinkles.  No, this isn't my God.  My God loves me regardless...and He loves to take those messed up areas and wrinkles of life and turn them around for His good purposes and glory. 

His love is forever, never changing, unfailing.  He is not like the electric company--a power than can be turned off in a storm--or for no reason whatsoever.  In fact, He does some of His greatest work in storms. 

His power is so much stronger--His strength so much greater--His love never ending. 

We just assume our electricity will be there.  We don't appreciate it until it is gone. 

Sometimes, we need a 'plunge into darkness' in order to see and feel 'The Light of the World'...our Savior, Jesus Christ. 

I gather my keys, and start to walk out the door.  As I open the door to leave, the power to my home comes to life.

And I smile, and say, "Thank You for showing me the way through the darkness of this morning."

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Closeness

 Monday, July 11, 2011

First cup of coffee on the deck.....

I awoke earlier than usual this morning....probably because of all the sleep I had over the weekend....resting and healing.

Up out of bed, to the kitchen, coffee in hand and open the door to the deck.  Oh, no!!

My nose is 'assaulted' by an obnoxious odor!!  A skunk!!  A skunk has been visiting somewhere close by, and he let all of us know that he has been here!!

Miles came in after spending the night outside, and I thought to myself...."Hopefully, she wasn't skunked!"  I reached down, scooped her up....no, she's safe and odor free. 

It is already muggy outside....a kind of closeness that seems to envelop your very being. 

As I sat there...thinking about this closeness in the weather....I thought about how God wants to be close to each of us.  He is waiting for us.  He desires an intimate relationship with me and you and everyone in this world. 

He is patient and kind....and He will wait. 

I, for one, don't like to keep Him waiting too long.  God has blessed me in so many ways, and I am on a walk with Him...a walk that will never end until I see Him face to face. 

So, I begin my walk for this day...with God by my side...guiding and directing each and every step. 

Sometimes it's difficult.  I have found that my busyness through my day tends to distract me from this closeness.  I go through my day, and I'm sure there are missed opportunities....things that God is trying to tell me or show me that I have missed completely....

I don't want to miss these God-given opportunities.  I don't want to miss His whispers to me.  I want to feel Him close beside me every moment of every day. 

And I am back to the very same question I asked a few weeks ago:

How is this possible?  I walk out my door...into the world....and sometimes I don't have a minute to think or feel....just move on what I've done in the past....through my entire day until I get in the car to come home again. 

My prayer for today:

Father God,

Draw me close to You--so close that I feel Your presence within me during each and every moment of this day.  Fill my heart and mind with Your thoughts and guidance for my day.  Help me to see all that You have to show me.  Help me to hear each whisper into my heart and mind

I pray that the distractions of the day do not lead me away from You, but towards You.  Help me to take each thought captive and turn the thought into a prayer--a blessing upon others rather than being negative or cutting. 

Lead me, bring me close and keep me there.....

I pray all of this in the powerful, mighty, strong, loving and most precious Name of Your Son, Jesus....

Amen


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A New Bird Song

 Sunday, July 10, 2011


I am linking up with Peggy today for Soaking on SONday.  It's easy and simple...just post a Scripture or song....something that is speaking to you today. 

I am again not feeling well.  The abdominal pain that I've been experiencing over the past month...which had stopped....came back to visit yesterday.  Thankfully, my daughter, Cara--along with Ryan and Lydia--was able to make the trip to the pharmacy for prescriptions and the grocery store for needed items. 

Woke up this morning--feeling the same as yesterday.  I know it will take a few days for the antibiotics to work--and I'm being as patient as I can be.

As I walked out onto the deck this morning, I  immediately heard the birds singing.  But, this morning was different.  There was one bird that stood out from the rest.....singing a bird song I had never heard before.  In my mind, I'm thinking..."Hmmm....this is a new song...."

And my heart feels this:


Sing a new song to the LORD,
for He has done wonderful deeds.
He has won a mighty victory
by His power and holiness.
The LORD has announced his victory
and has revealed His righteousness to every nation!
He has remembered His promise to love and be faithful
to Israel.
The whole earth has seen the salvation of our God.

Psalm 98:1-3



After reading and contemplating on these verses, my heart and mind jumped to the Book of Revelation:
 

Courtesy of Heartlight
Phil Ware

which, of course, led me to this song:



God speaking to me through one bird with a new song.....

Have a wonderful day soaking in the Son...




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Head to Heart

 Friday, July 8, 2011

I'm linking up today with Peggy for her Friday Feature .

The verse I've chosen for this week is Jeremiah 31:3:

 

Just to fill you in a little....my brain has known this fact--this promise from God--that His love for me will last forever, no matter what--for a long time.

My head knew, but my heart did not.  I memorized this verse long ago--along with many other memorizations  required by my church.  Memorize, repeat back verbatim, then you could move along in your "journey" to the next step.  Memorize, memorize, memorize. 

All of this information stored in my brain.  And that's where it stayed for many, many years--my brain. 

So, though I had all of this head knowledge, I did not have heart knowledge. 

What changed this?  What moved this love of God for me from my head to my heart? 

This happened when I had no where else to turn...no where else to go...

Bitter, angry, mean, jealous, hard as a rock...these were terms you could use to describe me.  I moved through life just trying to get by...just from day to day with no real purpose except to survive another day....I felt dead inside...emotionless....

When someone suggested to me that I attend their church, I brushed them off.  I felt that God had failed me in so many ways, and yes, I was angry at Him, too. 

This friend didn't give up though...didn't berate me for saying that "yes, I would meet her" and then not showing up.  She just asked again...and again....and again....

Until finally, I thought to myself that she's not going to stop asking and bugging me about this until I go...so I may as well go and get it over with....just so she stops...

That Sunday service...this song was played....and the Spirit moved within me...worked against all the bitterness and anger....worked in a huge, powerful, stirring way.





I do not claim to understand the mysteries and ways of God. 

All I know is what happened on that day.....

On that day, my head knowledge moved to my heart and settled there.  I felt God's love for me....I felt drawn closer to Him.....I felt peace and joy like I had never felt in my entire life.  The bitterness, anger, jealousy for others who seemed to have an 'easier life' was swept away....I had been cleaned by my God....covered in the blood of Jesus who died for me.

Yes, God's love is a "forever love".  This love is not dependent upon us "doing" something spectacular.  All He is asking is that we accept His Son, Jesus, as our Savior...and love Him in return.

It is a choice...God's free will allows this choice...to love Him or not.  He is not a pushy, demanding God....but, rather wants us to come to Him freely.

Yes, I was broken at that point in my life.  I have been broken since then....and I will be broken again.

But, knowing in my heart that God's love lasts forever....I can give my brokenness to Him....and He will show me the way....guide me along....restore me to a wholeness that would have never been possible without being shattered first.

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A Labor of Love

 Thursday, July 7, 2011

Sometimes I think....sometimes I don't...

I've had  Cara's dog, Nika, visiting with me since Sunday.  She comes to my house to rest.  Cara's household is busy, and this little dog rarely sleeps there...even to the point of checking everyone while they are sleeping. 

I was to return her home on my way to work yesterday.....got ready for work...gathered all her things....walked out the door....locked the door...got in the car and drove off.  I'm driving down the road when I realized that I didn't have the dog!!

By that time it was too late to turn around and go back to retrieve her.  So, another night at my house....another day's rest for Nika....and hopefully, I'll remember to take her with me this morning.

On to an unfinished project--

I mentioned about a week ago that I have a dresser...a dresser which was given to me when my son was born.  This dresser belonged to my grandmother's sister--she had three sisters, I'm not sure which one this belonged to, but I think it was my Great-Aunt Edna.

How old does a piece of furniture have to be in order to be considered an antique? 

Anyway, I have said for years that I am going to refinished this dresser:




I have had every intention of doing this since my son was born--30 years ago.  I'm sure it was never touched when my mother had this or her aunt before her. 

As I'm thinking about doing this...a big undertaking...I'm thinking that this will definitely be a labor of love....restoring an old item to new....a stripping away of the old and replacing this with a new finish....taking the tarnished brass drawer pulls and shining them to brightness....

This verse is brought to mind:


And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit....2 Corinithians 3:18


Our God loves us enough to accept us as we are at this very moment.  But, He doesn't leave us this way...we are constantly being nudged by the Holy Spirit...the very Spirit of our Lord...to be transformed into Christ's image...a stripping away of our old selves...sometimes small pieces at a time...

Which is why I think I'll start with one drawer and move on from there....

Again....I stand amazed....

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I Am A Lamb

 Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I have always had trust issues in my life....starting from when I was very young.  Trust....how do I trust someone who has hurt me?  How do I trust that this will not happen to me again?  How do I know that the person is telling me the truth when there have been so many lies?  Questioning....always questioning...is this the truth? 

Before I knew it, the mistrust of one or two...even three or more people....extends itself into the mistrust of everyone.  And then I find myself living a life of solitariness, anxiousness, worrying, confusion, panic attacks.....afraid to trust because of past hurts. 

And God began the healing process....

Learning to trust God was not an overnight miracle for me.  This was a series of answered prayers....me understanding that this truly was God in control (not me).  Hearing God's whispers to me...accepting God's truth into my life....His faithful promises spoken to me....His love and care for me....He is the Good Shepherd and I am His lamb....The Sheperd cares for His lamb....the lamb knows His voice and follows....allowing His goodness and protection to overflow.....because the lamb trusts the Shepherd. 

In my counting of God's gifts to me, this trust grows and flourishes.  I sense God's presence more acutely in my life through these gifts--I hear God speaking to me as I look and see...hear...smell...taste...feel...

As the list grows, my trust increases, my joy overflows to others, peace and love are always present in my heart and mind.

62.  Four kids in a bright orange paddle boat...going around in circles....laughing

63.  The smell of honeysuckle

64.  Soft breezes rustling leaves

65.  Lydia saying "love you"

66.  "I was thinking of you"

67.  Shoes tapping on hardwood floors

68.  Soft cotton between my fingertips

69.  Iced tea

70.  "I will never forsake you"

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."....Psalm 91:1-2


There are hundreds and hundreds counting their gifts from God.  To view those who are sharing their blessings, just click below.  Amazing....



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God Whispers

 Monday, July 4, 2011


These were the most awesome clouds...taken a few weeks ago.  The colors just took my breath away!!

And the moon on that same evening.  I don't think you can see them, but there are firelies all among the trees--flickering on and off. 


Two cats--Scout and Miles--lounging....

My daylilly--which finally bloomed!!

Lydia, Jackson and Brooklyn--one of the very few times that actually sat yesterday....

Yesterday was hot--over 90 degrees--and very, very humid.  We cooked outside and ate inside.  Lindsay took command of the grill, and she was drenched by the time she finished.  I would have taken a picture of her fanning herself with a paper plate, but she declined this opportunity. 

Brooklyn did ask "if this a cook-out, why are we eating inside?"  I told her that we did "cook out", but that it was just too hot to eat outside...that some of us are old and prefer air conditioning.

Which led to the discussion of all of our ages....she checked out Lindsay and Cara's age....which she could accept since they are about the same age as her mom. 

She then proceeded to ask me how old I was.  I countered this with "How old do you think I am?"--a loaded question to be sure.  She said she thought I was 50. 

Close quess, but when I told her that I was actually 57, her response was "WOW!!  That's almost into the 60's!!!"  We all laughed.

Brooklyn and Jackson came into our family along with Andrew's girlfriend, Danielle.  We love and enjoy them so much--very active, fun-loving kids.  For some reason, they both have decided to call me "B"...just "B"...and I kind of like this...

A good day, to be sure...and Lydia, upon getting ready to go home, said to me in this order....

Kiss
Hug
More kisses
More hugs
Love you (which really sounds like 'of you' since she is still having a bit of trouble with "L's")

The very best part of this day was this:

All of my kids and myself together once again--no harsh words, no mean looks, no tears, no one leaving in frustration or anger--just all of us together--enjoying each other's company. 

What a change can be made in our lives when we listen and obey as God is whispering into our hearts and minds......




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Let Freedom Ring--or Reign?

 Sunday, July 3, 2011

Today is Sunday...and tomorrow we celebrate the freedom of the United States of America.  But, are we truly free?

I was very unsure of what to write today until I stopped over at Peggy's to link up with her for SOS (Soaking on Sunday).  She had two verses written in her post:

If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from Heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land....2 Chronicles 7:14


It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery...Galations 5:1


As I read these two verses, this song came to my heart and mind:




Yes, Lord, we need You now.

For He will deliver the needy who cry out, the afflicted who have no one to help. He will take pity on the weak and the needy and save the needy from death. He will rescue them from oppression and violence, for precious is their blood in His sight....Psalm 72:12-14


May grace and peace be yours from God our Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ. He died for our sins, just as God our Father planned, in order to rescue us from this evil world in which we live. That is why all glory belongs to God through all the ages of eternity. Amen....Galations 1:3-5


If you're interested in joining or visiting others who are "Soaking on SONday", stop over at Peggy's and share what God is saying to you today. 

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Creativity in a Flash

 Friday, July 1, 2011

Friday has finally arrived...a three day weekend...time to relax...time to catch up on some household duties...and a cook out with my kids on Sunday--if the weather cooperates.  Even if we do have rainy, thunderstorm weather, we'll still get together and stay inside.

I decided to create a wordle from my "Thankful" post last night.  I like the way it turned out.

Wordle: Thankful In All Circumstances

To see in a larger view, just click!!

If you never have used wordle, it's a fun, easy way to create with words--either something you have written or just some text you can randomly select.  You can change the design, the color scheme, the font....easy and fun. 

Wordle: My Family

And this one....this is my family....just did this one in a space of a few minutes....

I'm off for one final day of work this week, and I'll be seeing you tomorrow!!

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